Tapi Kenapa??

Tapi kenapa??hehehhheheheh..tajuk kat atas ni tak de kene mengene..sengaja saya mahu menulis sedemikian rupa...Well,semua pun kate cuti sekolah yang sangat sedap.Memang sedap...sebab boleh godek2 anak dengan puasnya.Bangun pagi main dulu dgn anak bagi mood dia bagus,ini akan meransangkan otak dia supaya menjadi baby yang ceria,cerdas dan pintar dari segi EQ.bila emosi dia terjaga,maka dia akan membesar dengan sempurna..pas main,mandikan,susukan and main lagi sebelum dia menagmuk2 genyeh2 mata merengek,atau menyanyi2 minta ditidurkan..hahahahha..ini lumrah bayi-bayi mengikut perangkaan bayi sedunia..seronok tengok anak saya membesar depan mata..raa macam sekejap je die dah membesar..Zihni sekarang bukan lagi newborn yang helpless cam dlu...sekarang dia dah makin aktif..semua mende nak attention kite...Sangat seronoklah perasaan mempunyai anak ini..serius sangat seronok..Alhamdulilah syukur saya dikurniakan anak...

Hish....Fitnah ni bahaya la kawan-kawan...

At school today,there were no classes,we were just do some clearance here and there and many of the teachers were busy preparing for the hari anugerah.Me?As a new teacher,just hanging by with other new teachers too.While lepak2,my fellow colleague bukak laman web http://beautifulnara.com which I never have an idea to google into it.Suddenly she said,Ha?!biar betoi!!!Ain,cube ko tengok nih?kenal tak sape?I went nearer...I looked,and looked..Eh,kak...ini bukan xxx ke??Yupini dia..cube ko baca kisah ni..terkejut aku..said my colleague..And I read..first impression I said,Karut!!!tak kan lah..no way man....and I kept saying ini fitnah..But no matter waht it is,Allah know better..erm,tak nak citer banyak la,tak baik...tp sedikit kecewa andai cerita ini betul..erm,try baca ini http://beautifulnara.com/uncle-seekers-dedahkan-hubungan-cinta-dengan-bekas-permaisuri-agong-siti-aishah/

You raise me up..

The title above pretty gives the clue what I’m going to talk about today..my parents..

"And your Lord has commanded that you shall not serve (any) but Him, and goodness to your parents. If either or both of them reach old age with you, say not to them (so much as) "Ugh" nor chide them, and speak to them a generous word. And make yourself submissively gentle to them with compassion, and say: O my Lord! Have compassion on them, as they brought me up (when I was) little." Noble Qur'an (17:23-24)


Each and every day I am grateful to my parents who have sacrificed a lot to raise me up throughout my life. To me,my parents are my heroes. Because of everything they’ve accomplished. The sacrifices. My parents didn’t think of themselves, because had they thought of themselves. And it worked, and their dreams came true, and I see how proud they are.”

“I always had this sense of wanting to give back. I struggled very hard to make them proud of me..I think all of us kids – we’ve actually talked about it – we want our parents to be proud of us, because we saw the sacrifice that they made for us, we live with it every day. You know, they gave up so much for us.

Something to reflect....

That was in 2007 isn’t it? I was in my 2nd year in university. All I can still remember is, that was the most thrilling years in my life. I didn’t perform much and I didn’t know why I was so dumb to waste my time in university not struggling hard. I was busy lazing around.I was busy with societies and paying around.. I was at the lowest phase of my life in term of everything. Kinda a bit lost but still striving to improve myself in terms of study. The main reason was I got too carried away being in love with my ex bf. Although once in a while I could sense we were not suitable for each other but still I stayed in the relationship because I thought love need sacrifices and I didn’t dare to hurt him. But it turned out he was the one who decided to dump me. It was during the beginning of the year. Well I can't tell exactly what is happening between us...It is not allowed to tell the past..just let by gone be by gone ... The incident eventually made me hurt. To cut the story short, I made big mistake but luckily Allah Knows best... That was going on for good 3 months until one day I became so tired with all of that and was at the point of started to dreadfully hating him. I just realized that why I was being so stupid to put myself with all the troubles when he never care about me at all. That was when I started to hate him so much and kept praying that if only I never met him before. Later… it was during the middle of the semester that I got to contact my hubby indirectly via my best friend. It was almost during the end of the year. It all happening so fast and I am so grateful for what had happened between me and my exbf. My exbf did try to befriend me but I said to him thanks alot. It was really a blessing in disguise since actually God had a better plan for me...Allah maha mengetahui segala-galanya..walau sebesar zarah,percayalah semuanya dalam genggaman ALLAH. He blessed me with the most amazing person as my other half who will always loves me back unconditionally and appreciates my presence in his life. The rest is history :) There were so many lesson learned from the breakups(eh,banyak ke??) especially from the latest but one thing I learned the most was it obviously doesn’t worth it at all to hurt all other people who loves me and myself even more merely for a guy. There are so many people around me who really care and love me so I shoudln’t be selfish to others and ignore their feelings just like what the exbf did to me. Of course I can say this now since I’ve already met my Mr. Right hahaha! Kepada adik2 yang bercinta… kalau putus cinta jangan sedih lama2 sangat dan jangan buat benda2 yang bukan2.There must be some one who is meant for u.. Do not ever uter a word such,I can’t live without him ataupun takde orang lain yang lebih baik/sesuai dari dia. Belum bercinta lagi dah luka parah macam mana lah plak dia boleh jadi yang paling baik/sesuai kn? So semua itu adalah bullshit...what a stupid.. hahaha ;P Lebib baik doa kat Tuhan supaya cepat2 bagi kiter lupakan exbf yang berkenaan dan cepat2 temukan jodoh yang betul. Talking from experience. Kalau dah tak suka ur partner pun cepat2lah clash. Buat apa nak go on with the relationship if the love is no longer there kan? Sooner or later there must be someone who will feel frustrated either u or ur partner..

Tak der Kejer..

Normally,when it comes to ‘What I love to do most?’, the best answer will be ‘Shopping and travelling.But for the time being travelling could b spmething very impossible as my beloved husband is not aailable to spend his time travelling due to heavy workload.Well,as for shopping, I believe everybody on earth with money regardless either you are actually rich or poor;pokai or botak both know what is the meaning of it. Unfortunately it already has been months since I last did my shopping. Okay that sounds very worst but that’s it, so TRUE. If only I have all the money in the world!(lambatnye nak keje warrghhhhh)) Okay.. okay cool down. I was already felt like half mad while just browsing each and every page of websites showing branded items. I am so sure if only all the shopaholic friends of mine would get the chance to grab this opportunity, they won’t regret it ever. Well, I think it will just be better if I don’t get myself too excited yet. Why? I will feel more despair if I will not get the things that I want. I already have got all the things that I should and I just want a few things more. So many choices mean so many desires too.And..to fulfill the desire is somehow very hard to do..

The second thing that makes me so happy today is because I have found a website which actually teaches people to keep fit by doing dancing workouts!There are videos of the dances and there are even step-by-step moves video provided so that we can follow all the cool dancing moves (ouh they can be downloaded too!). I was so freaking excited and how I wish if only I could start dancing once I watched the videos.Erm..Till then..

Nothing much to say...

Salam A'laik..I’m back again and as usual with lots of updates which actually I have already lost track for the half of them. Yup, of course there are juicy and slurpy stories too but almost all of them are too personal to be told here and I better pour out only the common ones. I wished that I could tell everything happens in my life in here but after a second thought I don’t feel too comfortable with it. Because, others will read them and it bothers me a lot if the readers happen to know me regardless either they are important persons in my life or just cyber acquaintances who barely knew about me. The most important points after all are, I will feel weak and fool after reading them and I don’t like that feelings though. I have once read something at somewhere one time before, which said something like this; actually we need not to tell the whole secrets we have to others because at the end of the day we will end up becoming too dependable to others’ advices, mercies and concerns in other to move on. In fact, the little strong secrets we kept ourselves will inspire us to be wiser, braver and more matured to stand on our own in the future. So, I tried the latter since the time when I discovered about it and today I can say that I really agree with the idea. But well, just in case; I think I better stick with my own private journal or the mind chest too. Usually I would prefer the latter choice and sometimes would unlock the chest and let the painful memories been blown and gone with the wind as time passed by.

Okay, what a boring talking there dowh! Hmmm nothing special happened for the past few days, of course there were something huge happened between us (as usual arr....) but I’m not gonna talk about it =P =P =P releks ar... marriage life is always like that, like the high and low tides of the ocean where forgives and forgets, toleration and cooperation, respects and patience and all other important elements would always give and take non-stop continuously. Well, My love is very busy for the past 2 weeks since the plant is having a shut down..It is very bad for him indeed as he has to work very badly..plus,his annual leave is being freeze for the time being due to shut down process.. I told him that for next year’s annual leaves he will have to reserve them for only emergencies,(giving birth or well-planned holidays and other important purposes only). Hope that he will stick to his words...

Pregnancy???A m I ready??

My Kak Long called me yesterday when I was lying on bed thinking about the future..hahhaha..what will my future be??As usual she would asked"dh makan?" "tgh buat ape?" and at all of sudden before I could just answered all the previous questions came this question" ain dah pregnant ke?" hahhaha..I'm so surprised afterall..But then again it is undeniable,I am planning to have baby.and sometimes I feel like it's time for me to think of it and Yes,I'm quite ready..I always refer to Kak Long for any guidance and medical tips as she is my private doctor(free of charge) and she did mentioned to me that before you get pregnant it is important to make sure that you are truly prepared. Preconception care is an important aspect of helping to create a healthy pregnancy.

Apart from that, what matters most to me is Am I ready to give of myself to another person?Am I emotionally in a place where I can handle the responsibility that comes with having a baby?How about the lifestyle changes such as how comfortable I am with a lifestyle change. A baby adds a new person into my family, and the transition from a twosome to a threesome is a big one. erm...Is Parenting For Me Now?thing to ponder..